For the Love of Crayons!

September 1, 2010

Crack open that package… Smell the new wax. Feel the crisp paper.  Notice the pointy tips. Feel the pressure of the first stroke. Oh how I love crayons!  Really all school supplies….

Hi! My name is Tobe and I’m addicted to school supplies!

When August rolls around, I get little butterflies in my stomach.  Back-to-school season has started.  Store ads will start to announce the new fashions, bookbags, etc.  Staples or Office Depot will have the now famous $.01 deals.  I will scour the ads for the best deals.   I will wake up early to catch those penny deals before they sell out.  I have even gone so far as to ask the store manager when the next shipment will be.  I enlist my children to buy supplies with some of my money to get around those pesky purchase limits.  I linger over the new folder and binder styles, trying to decide if I am a girly girl or a punk rocker.  I buy my limits, walking out of the door with a new spring in my step, a smile on my face.

This year, I am not a student or a teacher.  I don’t particularly need school supplies.  I have a glut of leftover supplies from 20+ years of schooling.  I could just reach in the random tub and pick out a notebook.  But I don’t want leftovers, I want new and crisp.  So again I found myself scouring the ads, looking for the deals.  I did restrain myself to just buying supplies for my children using the school supply list.

As I discussed my addiction with my equally addicted friend, I came to a realization… It’s not just the school physical objects that get me excited.  It’s a less tangible thing.  To me, new school supplies signal a new beginning.  The start of a new school year.  A clean slate.  I know that soon, I will either start a class myself or start teaching a class.  I will get a syllabus detailing all the assignments/topics/expectations.  I will either give that motivational speech to do your best or receive one.  I get to start over, fresh and clean, ready for a new adventure in education.

I’ve come to the realization that I will forever be a student.  It’s my true calling.  I love learning. I love sitting in a classroom, listening to a professor or other students sharing information or opinions.  I want to have those nerdy debates over a theory or a technicality.  I want to discuss the motivations of historical figures or debate allegories in literature.  I want to get that feeling of conquering some difficult problem.  I want to come home and have someone ask me “What did you learn in school today?”  I want  to share my day, all the nuances of language or theory, the silly questions asked by other students, the A I got on that paper that I only worked on for 2 hours.  I want to physically feel my brain wrinkle.

So while I love that first spine cracking sound of opening a new composition book, it’s the underlying promise of something more that I am truly addicted to.  I don’t think there is a cure for this addiction, but I don’t think I want there to be.

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